What’s this unease around people?
Why am I so happy alone?
I often wonder
Who are all these people
What are they doing in my life?
They look so much like strangers
behave like adversaries
I often wonder
What is their problem with me?
What’s the meaning of this strife?
Why do they not understand me?
Why do they feel so threatened?
I often wonder
Why are they so toxic?
Venomous lips, eyes alike
Am I born in the wrong cluster?
I need a release from here
I often wonder
Are they all related to me?
Genes give a miserable life
Omg that can be so hard. I was adopted as a baby and with that there was always a feeling of being an imposter, of faking it. Now I’m living with my inlaws and the same feelings are surfacing
I can’t imagine what it would be like amongst blood relatives. It’s probably no different! Lol
I also find myself uneasy around people, especially if I don’t know them well. But when your family seem like strangers, that must be particularly hard!
Reena Saxena 
Finding strength is solitude is a great way to cope… but it would be better to find a better flock to join.
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Omg that can be so hard. I was adopted as a baby and with that there was always a feeling of being an imposter, of faking it. Now I’m living with my inlaws and the same feelings are surfacing
I can’t imagine what it would be like amongst blood relatives. It’s probably no different! Lol
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Mental alignment matters more than social, legal or genetic bonds. Two people in any relationship are always two individuals, two entities.
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I also find myself uneasy around people, especially if I don’t know them well. But when your family seem like strangers, that must be particularly hard!
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Alignment of thoughts comes first, a spiritual connect comes next. At times, one or both are missing.
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When relatives interfere in our lives….we become sentimental and many questions arise like this in our mind.
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You identified ‘interference’ correctly 😊 Thank you, Jane!
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My pleasure
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As the saying goes – ‘you can pick your friends but not your family’. I reckon they are jealous of you! You are beautifully and wonderfully made!
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Thank you, Carol! Your words are wonderfully soothing.
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Intense and sad. Self talk like this takes brutal honesty and courage. Thank you.
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Thank you, Victoria!
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they walk along your side
and talk shit behind ya back
about your rude and all you lack
well hell fuck them
to some kinda reality check
eh? pfft!
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I think we all feel this way sometimes.
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Thank you, Patricia!
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Your soliloquy is deep, personal …. and I believe many folks share those feelings! Well done.
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Thanks for resonating with this, Helen!
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Sometimes the blood ties because an encumbrances instead of consolation
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Getting away is relief, but for social appearances….
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We in the grips of our culture and expectations, cannot very rid of the need to make everything appear okay, even when they aren’t.
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Agree 👍
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