Quite often, I find myself gripped with a death wish. I feel like my existence is not very relevant to the world. Nor do they have anything to keep me happy and contented. I don’t really care about eulogies or elegies written for me.
What does matter is that my point of view – spoken, written or expressed by non-verbal means is understood. I don’t ask for acceptance or followers – just being acknowledged and understood. I’ve missed this one factor sorely in my life – more so, because I refused to blindly follow or obey others. They retaliated by ignoring me.
I read about the soul hanging around after death till the body is visible, and being able to hear thoughts of others. I wonder if I will want to hear all that, or just choose to make a quick exit.